Missing you

It's been awhile. Sorry. Much has happened in my absence. I went on an incredible trip to the Channel Islands, Amy got married, chaos at work. Probably way to much to put in one entry. I guess the best way to go about this is highlights. I'll start with the Channel Islands trip. So, I took three days off of work and met Ashley and Mackenzie in Ventura at the harbor. We bought ferry tickets out to Santa Cruz Island where we planned on staying the extent of the three days. The ferry trip was about an hour long and when we arrived on the island it turned out that we were the only three camping there. Talk about feelings of isolation. Yet they were good feelings. During the three days, the three of us explored as much of the island as possible, swimming, hiking, shell searching, singing, laughing. It was exactly what I needed. A beautiful place to relax. By the end of the trip we were ready to leave the island. The sun had scorched us and our bodies were tired. Exactly how I wanted to feel. Here are some pics of the trip:


Amy's wedding was incredible. I have pretty much been prepared for this day for a long time because her and Josh have been dating for so long but it was still a bit emotional. I'm so happy to now call my best friend my brother. The wedding couldn't have been more beautiful or more perfect for the two of them. There were fears that the forcast would bring rain. This fear became reality the day of the rehersal, however the next day the clouds parted and made beautiul skies for the wedding. Then the following day, the clouds came together and created more rain. God blessed the ceremony.



As for work......well, it's been hard but good at the same time. I'm the only house parent in my cottage now. I really miss Jenn. I also think that my wandering heart is starting to get stir crazy again. I love my job now, but I still want to do the Peace Corps. Take me to see the world! I'm starting to forget was free time feels like. I'm working close to 70 hours a week. I know my job isn't really a job, it's more of a lifestyle, but sometimes I want to separate myself from it and it's almost impossible to do that when you work so much. I keep having to remind myself why I'm there. These kids need love, family. If I can give any of that I need to give it until I have nothing left to give. Maybe that's what God really wants from us. Give until you feel there is nothing left. Then when you are able to give a little more, you know that it came from Him.

Speaking of the big man upstairs, I'm slowly forgeting what a relationship with Him looks like. Not because He abandoned me but because I have somehow managed to walk away from Him. I know I need Him, but why can't I make myself act that way? How can I put so many other things above Him and then act shocked when my spiritual life sucks?! I get little tastes of what a real relationship with Him is like and I miss it yet still manage to walk away from it. I'm not sure what to do. What else is new though?